i am who i am....

did u know me??

of course u not...
u can't judge me if u don't know me...

don't judge a book by its cover...

 i know who i am..

and people arounds me 2...
i love to smile and a hepy go lucky person...
i love to be friends with everyone, as long as they are sincere with me...

if u don't like me?

that doesn't matter to me..

coz i'm not dying without u to be frenz with me....
if i lost one frenz...i would get ten more frenz...

i will die without my family...

they are everything to me...

i love to be with them...
they are my strength in my life....

family first than other things....
for my family....
I LOVE ALL OF U MORE THAN MYSELF!!!!

what comes around turns around....

i have done so many things....
i have go through so many chapter in my life....
i have feel so many feelings....
n i have know so many types of peoples especially men....

i have hurt their feelings...
i have makes them hepy..
i make them angry...
n i make them crazy of me...

when i'm bored...
i leave them...
i just go away from them...
n ask them to stay away from me...

am i so cruel??
i done it coz my own reason...
i also don't understand it...
but i have do it....

but at one time...
i have falling in love with someone....
i love him so much...
with all my hearts...

but i have made a mistake....
i have been unfaithful to him...
although he was really love me...
n want me to be stay with him forever...

he just leave me....
coz he can take it that i have been cheat to him ,
for all this while i'm with him...
but i really love him...

i like have lost something in my life...
like somethings not complete in myself...
i'm so lonely...
n i'm feel regret with what that i have done to him...

i'm start thinking....
maybe this is what others feel ,
when i do the same way to them before this....
i'm really sad and regret it...

it what people always say to me....
WHAT COMES AROUND TURNS AROUND....
n i have know it now.....

fulfill my heartz.....

what should i done...
should i appreciate what that i have now??
or should i find some others things to fulfill my hearts...

sometimes i also don't know what that i want...
i have try to change..
but i can't...

i'm want to be serious with somethings...
but i'm afraid i would be hurt...

just one things i know...
i would try.....

bored.............

why i'm so bored now???
nothing to do,and nothing to think about...
people keep talking about the same thing...
but i would never change.....

so bored make me crazy.....
crazy make me bored.....
is that same?
of course not...

u like me or not,
thats doesn't matter for me...
i'm would be who i am...
n u would be who u r...

don't try to change me..
coz u have to change first....
don't try to advise me...
coz u have to look into a mirror urself first...

please don't ever force me...
coz i really hate that...
don't push me to do something that i won't....
coz u would make me bored with u...

when i'm bored...
everything would be change...
my love,my heartz, n my intention to u..
would be lost....

don't try to do that....
coz u would be regret it....
and i would be happy and calm with myself...
just bare it in ur mind....

what should i do???

i don't know....what should i do now???
what i got, is something that i don't want...
what i do, is something that i don't like...
people around me also cannot help me with this....

should i follow myself,
or listen to others opinion also...
i may not get to make my own right decision,
but i also cannot ask others to find the solution for me....

i have also to make it happen...
but i don't know how to make it happen...
something that i did not expects at all had happened,
and i still in confuse................
please.....
i want this to be done clearly as soon as possible....

what i fell right now...

love is something that all of us have..
either from your family or frenz....
for me,my familys love is more important...

life always not fair for us....
we will be happy and sad just in a moment...
all our precious moment with someone we love,
will just blow away just in a moment....

love not really important rite now...
what i fell now, is nothing to remember.n to feel about...
people cannot understand and go through our heartz..but i will.....